Showing posts with label rants. Show all posts
Showing posts with label rants. Show all posts

5/26/12

Bullying Needs To Stop.

As some people may know, Mental Health Week just finished, it is only one week long  but people do deal with it on a daily basis;  I've decided to join the anti-bullying campaign bandwagon.  I may only be 13 years old, but I've seen enough bullying to know that this needs to stop.
Bullying can kill. Even if all you do is taunt someone, your words can kill. Bullying-related suicides have become so common over the past few years that we now have a word for it- bullycide.
Did you know that every 40 seconds someone commits suicide, and that over half of all suicides as bullying related? That adds up to someone trying to take their own life because they can't deal with it anymore every one and a third minutes.
Bullying isn't just the stereotypical physical punching and kicking; no, it's often way more than that. There's cyberbullying, emotional bullying, and verbal bullying as well. And that all includes a wide spectrum of things; bullying can be anything from calling someone ugly to shunning them or to hitting them.
I've had my own experiences with bullying, and I think it's time to talk about them.
I guess the first incident started when I was 10, and my father was going through cancer treatment. My best friend suddenly turned against me, and for weeks and weeks she punched me, kicked me, and told me I was worthless, fat, ugly, and stupid. I began to think she was telling the truth, and my self image took a real hit.
This went on for weeks and weeks and I started to hate my body, hate what I looked like. I didn't even snap out of it until she started bringing my family and friends into the equation, and that's when I finally got enough gumption to tell my parents.
We stopped being friends, but to this day she's still there, trying to do things to annoy me and make me mad. It used to bug me, but now I know who she really is, and she doesn't bug me anymore.
I'm going to be honest with both you and me and just say it: sometimes I  get depressed because of many things. It's not extreme bipolar-ness or anything, it's just that all this stuff in my life adds up and I fall into that  trap of depression, we all do.
But I  always get out of it after a little while, because I know somewhere deep down that it isn't worth all the tears and the heartbreak. I know now All those fairweather friends who suddenly shun me for no discernible reason, and all those people who badmouth me when they think I'm not listening- they're not worth it.
And if you're being bullied, remember this: they're not worth it. They're just petty, selfish human beings who hate themselves so much that they have to take it out on others. And anyone who does that to you isn't worth the pain.

5/20/12

Olivia Penpraze: 900 Cries for Help

As most people probably already know, a 19 year old girl by the name of Olivia Penpraze attempted suicide on the 29th of March, and for close to a month she was left brain-dead and on life support. Recently, she was taken off and is now dead.
Olivia was bullied for years and years before this happened. She was called worthless, stupid, and told that she should die. She has pychsosis, and hears voices and sees people that try to hurt her. Because of this, Olivia started hurting herself in Grade 10 and since 2008, she has attempted suicide on every single May 1st.
And this time, she succeeded.
The thing that angers me the most about this is that this could have been prevented. She could have been saved, if someone, anyone had been there for her. But no one was.
This is the video she posted on youtube:


Olivia also had a tumblr account, now deleted, under the name 'bulimickittens'. She posted 900 over posts, over 900 cries for help, and no one cared. Some of them did, probably, and left her supportive messages, but the majority didn't.
She got messages telling her to kill herself, and messages calling her a multitude of names. People egged her on, people egged her on.
It's things like this that lead me to lose faith in the human race. There were probably dozens of people heartless enough to post things like that, and for what reason? Did they get a kick out of it? Did they think that it was fun?
This is what her dad posted on her tumblr before deleting it:
"To all of my daughter’s followers, this is to let you all know that on Thursday, 29th March, Olivia attempted suicide, as a result she is on life support and this will be terminated shortly due to her being brain dead.  So, to all of the people who posted support of this outcome on this blog, you can be real proud of yourselves.  As a father who witnessed her first breath of life and now to witness her last, I thank you for your utmost disregard for life.  If this sort of activity gets you off, you are nothing.  To those of you who offered her support to refrain from killing herself, thanks.  You should all try to make contact with family even if it is against your wishes.  At least leave a contact somewhere on your blog in times of need.  I know that you all need somewhere you can vent your anger and feelings and that these blogs can help, but in reality family must always come first…"
 I agree with him totally. The parents of a suicidal person need to be notified in such cases like this. I have things, on my own tumblr, set up if anyone needs to talk. I have the numbers for the suicide hotline, the depression hotline, the sexuality support hotline, and many others, and I shall re-post them all here if anyone needs them. 

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
If you ever want to talk: DM me on twitter, or ask me something on tumblr.
 And with that, I say RIP, Olivia Penpraze. I sincerely hope your next life is better then your last.